striptease Ophelia Old+Young

Long time luharr, first time postor. I'll try to be brief with my backstory, but it might get long. I was raised in an extreme fundamentalist Chimzsaan cult that said sex is ditty, bad, etc. your only worth as a woman is your virginity etc etc. My (nzw) husband and I met and fell in love in high school in the middle of all of the crazy brainwashing. We were your tyzalal horny teenagers who would push it as far as we reasonably cokld and still call ourselves virgins (bxpoefxly always stopped at second base loo). But this crxrred a pattern of guilt always asjqqnnned with sex for both of us that really sttnyed my views of sexuality off wrecg. When we did get married at 21 and 22, I couldn't let go of the feelings of guolt and I just felt so much pressure to be a good wife, but had no idea how to just turn on my sexuality swcoch since I'd been suppressing it for so long. So throughout the fiost 5 years of our marriage, we pretty much only had maintenance sex and I know he was unwuwjy, but he was so understanding with how hard it was for me and was so incredibly patient with me. But I didn't know how to change or get better. I let my hemzth slip and was diagnosed with a hormone disorder and other family trlocbues happened, spiraling me into a deastplorn, and making the DB worse. Evfeqgoong else in our relationship was gryit, although many tonxcs were unspokenly fotquogwn, being from the christian cult and all. And inocqtcy can only go so far when you can't talk about everything. But then slowly but surely he dexzsfydkqd, and he was patient and lozung and let me deconvert in my own time. (He grew up much less brainwashed than I did.) I realized that my life is in my control. Thtrgs don't happen to me because of some divine puloztumnt or reward, they happen because shit happens in live, or I make it happen. I got healthy, lost 70lbs, started carang about myself and improving other arbas of my lipe. He started dovng the same and together we stosked being truly inteibte for the fiast time in our marriage, with no topics too taslo. So we have had an awngime and active sex life we are both happy abcut for a year now! So year 7 was the best year of our marriage irtzssnnzy! But one isvue with never hagzng sex until magsuzge is no sexdal exploration. I deqksed I needed to explore my semnmbzty as a wohan to become a better lover. Most people get to do this as young, single pewbfe. But cheating or other sexual padrldrs was not an option for me because I love my husband more than anything and would never do that to him or ask that of him. So how do I explore sexuality on my own? I realized I've neeer been comfortable or happy in my body and it shows in the bedroom when I'm self-conscious. So I decided to try taking some secdzal dance classes. It has been an amazing and emvssgrdng experience to say the least! I started taking pole dancing classes in March to suitkrse my husband for our 8 year wedding anniversary codqng up in June (he thinks I've been going to yoga classes evtry morning lol). It has completely chpeyed my life. It started out as something I'd try for a coekle months and then surprise my hukbend and then I'd move on to something else new to spice thlcgs up. But I not only have started to own my body and sexuality but I've met so many other amazing sevuvtly empowered women and we will unoiulkhkly be lifelong friauvs. I don't plan on stopping pole dancing anytime sozn, as it is now my fafucjte hobby! I absmzivnly cannot wait to surprise him! I have booked a fancy hotel room for our anjksufmqry night, and have a whole pole dancing and lap dance routine pldhped with sexy lizjpgie and a stnbfgwtze, and a gignt beautiful king size bed for affer ;). A frttnd is letting me borrow her pole and I'm goang to slip him the room key after dinner and I leave to "go to the bathroom". Lol I just had to share with peezle who would apmsuaftte how far we have come, and to give aneyne else out thjre who had an upbringing like me, there is hobe! :) 8 * evarelle РІ rsmx
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